What did I expect from you? 

Why did I still put my hope high again on you?

Who're you that makes me can't stop loving you?

When did I will learn from all the heartbreaks that you gave me?

The question that we often ask ourselves. Despite all the heartbreaks or the pain that we received, we choose to ignore and never stop loving. It's tiring isn't? But still, we choose to forgive even for a million times. We choose to be happy on a sad-miserable pain. We choose to put a smile like we never cried every night. We choose to put our hope high like we never been given fake hope. We choose to trust no matter how many trusts been broken. We choose to love like we never been through a heartbreak. We're so desperate to keep the relationship together that we take all the blame when it comes to what's going wrong, even when it's not our fault; just for someone that we love. It really is heartbreaking to go through the heartbreak that we haven't even accepted. Indeed, we never learn. 

We overthinking because we love them and afraid of everything. We overthinking because we choose to be like that. Some people might feel that it's not a big deal. But it's a really big deal for an overthinker. It sucks to be an overthinker because we think too much into something. 

We overthinking and drowning into our past/present too much. We want the pain stop but we never make it stop. We choose to overthink and wondering, why did s/he never did like what you did to them. You keep on drowning into your own overthinking and you can't stop. The person that makes you overthinking, never understand you and never want to calm or help you from drowning. They being selfish and ignores you even more. 

It's hurting you, right? Who to blame? S/he who can't understand and trying to help you? Or you, who's choosing to overthink? It's not your fault, and it's not their fault either. Instead of finding someone to blame, why not we choose to be happy with someone who wants to be happy with us.  Finding our own happiness, it's not easy. It'll be hard, but it gonna be worth it. They'll make an effort to make you happy if they love you. Never beg for an effort or loves. They'll do it if they want and if they love. There's no excuse if you're in love. We should appreciate the effort more than words. Words without action are nothing. If you love, show it and never keep inside.  

Hey beautiful creatures,

I hope soon you will be strong enough to not be an overthinker. I know, it's not an easy task for you and me as well, but insha'Allah soon we'll be okay. It's okay for us to be an overthinking person, and stop blaming yourself. We should be better each day, and we should make our happiness as a priority. Choose someone who wants to be chosen by you and they choose you. You're not a second option to anyone. You're more than that, honey 😊

Here's a tweet for you;  

"Too many times, you've drowned yourself for people who can't appreciate your presence and too many times, you've abandoned yourself for people who pick and choose when to open their doors to you. Too many times, you've put yourself last, and I hope it shall never happen again." - AimanzHaikal_

"I hope you find someone who doesn't make you sad at night. Someone who reminds you how much they love you every day. Someone who laughs at your jokes and wants to listen to your music. Someone who genuinely wants to be with you and doesn't make you second guess their love." - NoorIrwann

Lots of love;
AlissWafa 💙