A few months that had been miserable for this year.

June; totally the worst month for this year --

Actually, it started a week earlier than Eid Mubarak. But it becomes worst in June until now. I've been very devasted and drowning in my unstable emotion. I'm truly weak and not being myself. It's just not that I'm not being myself, but I also slowly losing myself. It's crazy and how miserable I was at that moment. I'm losing appetite, my sleep schedule is also totally messed up, and I even don't even want to do anything except; crying all day. I'm totally being a crybaby 😅

How unproductive my daily was; I keep on wondering and asking questions to myself too much. I overthinking over and over again. I pressure myself with a question that I don't have the answer though. The more I want to know the answer, and the more I was being attacked by the truth. Indeed, the truth hurts more when you know by your own-self. I cried a lot for the whole month. I'm losing myself and make myself sick even more.

But, despite all of that-
I learned a lot. And no matter what, I need to accept everything that happened.
Indeed, It's not easy and might need a lot of time to heal but to survive; I need too.
and I really appreciate those that stay and hear all my crying-session. I received a lot of love and warm-sweet text from a few of my close friends. Even a few from a stranger or a few of my new friends that I knew through my mental-breakdown session. I truly feel soo blessed with all those good people.