365/365 🍁
365/365, the last page of this chapter and the end of 2019
This year was so hard for me. I barely to feel happiness, and all the time of being sad, overthinking & broken-hearted. I doubt too much this year, I can't see my worth and keep on blaming myself. I can't love myself because I was so busy loving and taking care of other people's feelings. 2019 was soo toxic. All the pain, sadness and disappointments that I felt this year, was so unbearable. I keep on thinking and question myself too much, it's not normal. Every time I question myself, I can't stop crying and will start to struggle to breathe. I always have unstable emotions and feelings. This year also, I always got sick and become so weak. My family, roommate, and friends know how struggles I was for the whole sem 5 in 2019. My sem 5 was not as good as it should be. No, I mean my diploma's life was never good and there's nothing I can be proud of it. But Alhamdulillah, everything went well and I survive till the end! Yayyy!! 🙌
This year, I stay away from people who make me feel like I'm a burden. I stay away from people who not know my worth. I stay away from people who make me question my self-esteem. I stay away from people who always take advantage of me. I stay away from people who make me feel like I was hard to love. I stay away from people who always being fake and always break my trust. I stay away from people who make me feel like I'm not good enough. I deleted all their contacts, indeed I was being so much happy than before. If I can, all of you also can. But still, I want to thanks all of you. To everyone who leaves, and to everyone who's staying. No matter how bad or good all of you treat me, I still feel so blessed. No matter how sad and happy memories that all of you gave to me, I still grateful for everything. I still want to wish all the best for the upcoming 2020. I learned a lot from all of you. Thankyou! 💪💓
To everyone who's still struggling and in pain, here's a message for you;
This year, I stay away from people who make me feel like I'm a burden. I stay away from people who not know my worth. I stay away from people who make me question my self-esteem. I stay away from people who always take advantage of me. I stay away from people who make me feel like I was hard to love. I stay away from people who always being fake and always break my trust. I stay away from people who make me feel like I'm not good enough. I deleted all their contacts, indeed I was being so much happy than before. If I can, all of you also can. But still, I want to thanks all of you. To everyone who leaves, and to everyone who's staying. No matter how bad or good all of you treat me, I still feel so blessed. No matter how sad and happy memories that all of you gave to me, I still grateful for everything. I still want to wish all the best for the upcoming 2020. I learned a lot from all of you. Thankyou! 💪💓
To everyone who's still struggling and in pain, here's a message for you;
"Allah knows. Allah knows you're tired. Allah knows it is difficult for you. Allah knows you're squeezing your last drop of energy. but you must also know that Allah would never place you in a situation that you can't handle. Just trust in Him, InshaAllah Allah SWT will ease everything for you and all of us. Always trust that will always have a rainbow after a rainy day. May Allah SWT will bless all of us! 💖"
"If someone is strong enough to bring you down, show them you’re strong enough to get back up."
Everyone is blessed with different things in life.
Remember to be thankful, always 🌈
I gonna close this chapter and leave all the pain, sadness & disappointments. 2019 gave me so many lessons to bring in 2020 ✊
0 comments