Fresh start, New fairytales ❤
Move on; It’s not the end, but a Beginning
Finally almost a few months I totally move on from 'him' and from our 5yrs "love-story-one-side" that doesn't mean anything to him heh and yes before this, I was the only one who is falling in love. all by myself. my feelings for him were so real. even there are not too many or maybe don't even have nothing to be proud but I was so sincere and I'm still embarrassed by that. HAHA, I admit, when at the first moment I do feel angry and blame both of them for what just happen. I feel so sad and I think I don't even deserve to be treated like what just happen.
But then I start thinking, everything happens must have a reason why it's happening. at that moment, I start to think positive and be happy. BCS I know I shouldn't be sad and broken. you know what, I rasa tak berbaloi pon I broken lama lama HAHA I should move on.
Yass, it's going to hurt for a while no matter what I do. But there are certain things I can do that'll make I feel even worse, like checking my ex's tweets over and over again, instagram or sitting at home by myself and wallowing in my pain.
Instead, doing something that can make I forget him. I just need to focus on something that more forgets him, focuses on something that more important than him. I need to make myself busy with something & not thinking abt him. I know that they won't make the sadness disappear, but they'll put me on the right track.
I just need to stay strong and never give up, great things take time tauu. Slowly, I learn to love myself no matter what. ll make sure my happiness is my own priority and I'll try my best to always be grateful for everything. I choose to stay positive & be happy no matter what. I hope, I can be a good person with a good heart 😊😊
anddddd if he does love me, he will never hurt me like that (&maybe I hurts him too, so I'm sorry)
nahh nevermind, "Disebalik sesuatu ada sesuatu." I trust with this quote. and I do trust with Him. He knows the best for me. He will ease everything for me. and He knows that I'm strong enough to face all of this.
nahh nevermind, "Disebalik sesuatu ada sesuatu." I trust with this quote. and I do trust with Him. He knows the best for me. He will ease everything for me. and He knows that I'm strong enough to face all of this.
You, I forgive you for all of it. I forgive you for the night I stayed crying up because of you. I forgive you for leaving and then coming back just so you could leave all over again. I forgive you for the things that you said when you and I both knew you didn't mean them. And I forgive you for using me to try and fill the hole that she left in you and now I forgive myself. I forgive myself for everything that I put myself through. I forgive myself for letting myself believe that you were the greatest part of me. I forgive myself for loving you when you weren't worth a damn though. And I forgive myself for took a few months to move on from you. I have to let go and to do that I need to forgive everything.
Indeed, nothing is permanent people change, feelings fade away, no feeling lasts forever, everything changes, things go wrong, struggling to hold on, mentally exhausted but despite all that, we just need to adjust and grow happily. No matter what, life goes on
. I just can hope that in the future, I'll be more strong and find someone that can love me with all his heart 💓❤
2nd May of 2017
Be strong as walls, because strong walls shake but never collapse 😊
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